Avery Parrott

Avery Parrott is an 18 year old high school student from Redondo Beach, California. She performs her poetry weekly at Coffee Cartel and enjoys writing in her journal. 

Instagram + Twitter: @veryparrot 
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SERIAL CRUSHING is a taxing sport
and i’ve become a pro
batting 400 in terms of absolute infatuation
i’ve risen above the status quo

and i hate it with every part of me
that isn’t reserved for fantasy, daydream nation
mastering the art of the crush
with every new iteration

this feeling isn’t sustainable
but far too familiar to let go
obsessive compulsive, romantic, and repulsive
short of breath, and low

serial crushing: exhausted
a heart that’s beat itself to death
i don’t know where to draw the line
but i know i’m not done yet

over and over, hairy and runny and late
and i feel like i’m swallowing spoons
waiting outside the big green gate
because i don’t want to enter too soon

stretchmarks and false memories
and i don’t even know how to talk to you
short hair, trying my glasses on
and he’s a pretty girl too

serial crushing in my senior year
so i feel the need to rush
saying things i wouldn’t normally say
to evoke a response out of someone i like too much

my left knee to his right
tight seating arrangements, driving at night
buttons up and down the track
and swallowing my pride when you ask

because it doesn’t feel healthy
and it sounds stupid when i spell it out
fixating on everything
still so full of doubt