"I’m a self-proclaimed writer who’s really bad at grammar, but is majoring in English and economics at Loyola Marymount University. I also work as the Assistant Social Justice Editor at The Los Angeles Loyolan and despise pineapple on pizza. Those last two facts in no way relate, but I thought they were important to mention. I’m a huge fan of comics and thrifting and being in love with stories and characters. My signature emoji is the chili pepper. Everyone needs a signature emoji."
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musings of a selfish girl
i.
i am between wanting and giving; however, not satisfied, but being satisfied completely.
ii.
i want to go back to that place,
to my world.
where up is down and down is up and if you go to the left you end up on the right where everything i say doesn’t make sense,
but i understand.
iii.
i want no one i love to live their life without me,
without my consent,
without my presence,
but i want to live my life and show them my strengths and my skills and show them how perfect i can be and how they can’t possibly live without me.
it’s selfish, but i want it and i even believe i should have it.
it is reasonable.
iv.
love not lost was love not had at all.
v.
i want to command the sun
to lift my chin up and he rises
to jut my chin out and he follows
to veer to the side and he goes
to whisk my fingers downwards so he sets.
i want to stand tall along a tree,
so she happens to lean against me as if nature needed me more than we were made to need her.
vi.
i forgot that i have an entire civilization in me:
in my blood there are races,
in my womb there are lives,
in my mind there are ideas.
so many things are in me,
but i have no space for one thing--
vii.
me me me me me me me me me me me me…
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